Today in church Miles was looking at pictures of Jesus. I leaned down and whispered in his ear "Did you know Jesus loves you?" Without hesitation and with a big smile he said "Yes." I then asked "Did you know you will get to be with Him again one day?" Again, without hesitation and in his sweet childlike voice said, "Yes." Oh, the faith of a child!
It got me thinking...can I answer those questions with that much conviction and without hesitation. DO I KNOW THAT JESUS LOVES ME? Deep down I know this without a doubt. There are times, however, when I have to think about that answer for a minute. When life gets hard, or I feel very alone in my trials, there are times when I hesitate with that answer. Do I know that Jesus loves me even though I am infertile and can't have anymore biological children? Do I know that Jesus loves me when we are waiting/searching/hoping to grow our family through adoption? YES, I DO! I wouldn't be able to survive the tests and trials in my life without that knowledge. I truly know that I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves me and who gave his only begotten Son to suffer and die for my sins, my pains, my sorrows. I have a Savior who knows everything that I am feeling. He understands me perfectly. Even when I don't understand all that I am going through, I know that if I just lean on my Savior He will help carry me. He will "lead me, guide me, walk beside me, [and] help me find the way." He will "teach me all that I must do to live with [Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ] someday." (I am a Child of God, Primary Children's Songbook, p. 2--http://www.lds.org/music/library/childrens-songbook/i-am-a-child-of-god?lang=eng)
So yes, even though I may not always say it with conviction, I will ALWAYS say it. I know Jesus loves me.
DO I KNOW THAT I WILL GET TO BE WITH HIM AGAIN ONE DAY? This isn't something that I think of often. It seems too far away to think about. Daily life tends to make me forget this fact. But it's TRUE!! One day I will get to be with my Savior again. I will be able to bow down before him and bathe His feet with my tears. I KNOW I WILL! I want to live my life in such a way that will prompt Him to say when we do meet "Well done, though good and faithful servant..." (St. Matthew 25:21) I honestly can't wait for the day when I can see Him face to face. What a glorious day that will be! Do I want it to happen any time soon? No!!! I still have so much I need to work on to become better. I still have so much to learn about giving my burdens to Him and trusting Him. I'm not ready; but this year I am going to strive to be more ready...to better myself spiritually and live my life in such a way that others will be able to see Christ through me.
